HI

ya sea..

2011-06-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

There's no sleep behind those eyes, or to soothe that restless mind. Neither is there hope in the words you speak, in assumption of wasted time. There's no fire you breathe when your mouth whips at me. There's just an obvious triumph in your negativity.

When you drag your feet and drag others (and me), bewildered why they cry...

There's observers hope that watch you mope, a sad wish that'd you die.

Or so you think.

And dream.

Oh, a way to justify how you treat them (and me).

Your standards can't be met, because you have none.

If you lose, expectation, so you've won.

Oh, to break a girl in half for fun.

Washington

2011-05-19T20:28:00.000-07:00

To sleep is simply to soar,

A shadow of a vision in my head,

Makes me feel mad in my skin,

What you see will go,

And beauty must one day leave,

Gorgeous sun,

Slither, not shake,

When you sleep,

Remember to dream

Pourqoi

2011-05-09T08:26:00.001-07:00

Because we once made it snow in a boy's bathroom when the air was pure and the white of your eyes was obscured
She spoke and she smoked while I attempted to manage my feelings
"feel this"; those words
From a chest that has no heart
In your life, I'm a vague part
I know
But when asked why we have no care in the world, why I can't think of words to say
It's because we once made it snow

Ah woahh

2011-05-01T21:23:00.001-07:00

Life is long and life is short
We hang ourselves and we abort
We snort happiness and deceive our hearts
Dividing love in many parts
Pains a game and so's the above
If theres anyone I'm thinking of
If I can't remember the second verse
And to love your child is to scream and curse
Then count me out.
I won't scream
I won't shout
My mind is calm with doubt
And other stuff too
Because the life I lead
Wasn't prescribed to you
Oh, irony
Through the window and on the floor
And that one time oil called me a whore
When everything's numb
Yet my heart beats strong
Lifes too short for love
Yet to hate, it's too long.

Oh

2011-05-01T21:16:00.001-07:00

I could probably kill myself
But I don't have the guts to tear them out
But I was only wondering
Smashing my brain against bricks
Just wondering
About getting more than my fix
And less than my hope
With reality, I cope
With the days that follow
Beyond my limits and zone
If hell has company
Count me in
Because hear is nicer
Than alone.

Chant

2011-03-21T20:48:00.001-07:00

When all I do is cry.
I'm mountains and deep deep valleys
And not scared to die.
Physique and convenience
And no more bathroom floor.
You're skin and bones and organs
But oh, I ask for more.
Marrow and capillary veins
And neurons and atoms to whore
I remember when you begged for my body
Now my skin is just a bore.
And I'm grasping with nothing to hold
No heart or hair in hand
Just an hourglass and a ticking clock
While we roll in love in sand
I'm head over heels over head in lust
And you're sitting and dying and smoking; you're dust.
You're lacking a voice
I'd give you mine
Where I slip off the edge of the world
To a place where the sun is shining
And I'm not some sobbing girl
Takes my hand to lead me through people i'll never see
I'm on display with this man
And you were never proud of me
So my foot slips off a cliff
With a quiet girl
And a boy
And a fifth
I land back to when I was in your arms
And on your bed
And I kissed your cheek
And every part
Of your head
Where my fingers touched
From your lips to your thigh
When I wait for your wake
When all I do is cry.

Bus

2011-03-04T22:35:00.001-08:00

Raindrops clashing with my face in the most awkward places possible
Like between my nose and lip
And the right side of my chin
And the crease of my lips pressed together
Into a frown
Giggles forced into my ears
When I'd much rather lay my head
Down

Download

2011-02-28T07:03:00.001-08:00

My lungs to the music in your hand
Floating illegally to a different land
I could drive until I hardly exist
Or drink to a place much more beautiful than this.

Jett

2011-02-22T06:00:00.001-08:00

Coffee at 8 just to fuck the damn day.
If I'm not careful, they'll draw blood by May.
I could turn the wheel now before hope is lost..
Life in a cube is all it would cost.
To a place where your hated and shoved back in your shell
You go to compete
I call it hell.
Eyelids touch, waking up in your drool
I'd rather be in the ground today
Than at school. ):

Jeans

2011-02-19T22:51:00.001-08:00

Not even good enough to keep your mind from caving in on itself
Not even close.
So let your eyes hit the back of your head & those buried thoughts come clean.
I won't even touch you.
Despite your tries.
You're not good enough for me.

Striped

2011-01-27T22:42:00.001-08:00

My expression has diminished along with my passion, my inspiration.
Any hope of leaving these four walls.
Enveloped in darkness, I'd say if I were a poet.
I'd love you if I wanted you to know it.
With age comes expectation, and with that comes disappointment.
Your corner of this room shines bright.
A wooden sign nailed to your head that tells me to stay.
You look so beautiful, despite the open wound.
And if it were any other day,
And I wasn't in a motel bathroom, or hoping for something more, or buntings in the evening, or with a child of a whore..
I'd be singing along to a kitten's tune..
But if it weren't for that bitch,
Then I wouldn't have to.
Because I stood up for you, and believe the words you spoke.
And as I swallowed that dirt, I did not once choke.
Because if I can ease my pain for a fifth of a second
And I can divide pi by four
Then love, I can beckon.
And when you beg for your things
Like I'll never return
My eyes will see yours
And pray your soul burn.
Because the depth of the nails
Correlates to the the strength of his hands
Yet hostility and anger only remains.
Hold mine, and lie.
Or lie next to me.
Kiss me if you must
Or from my neck
To my cheek.
But please don't touch me
Just laugh at my jokes
I see why you're alone
Barbed wire, knives, razorblades, guns, ropes, chains, sticks, stones, arrows, spears, death, decay, pain, shame, cry, fight, fuck, bleed.
No fucking human can hurt me.

Awhile

2011-01-27T22:03:00.001-08:00

Better off alone
No ones arms to call home
Locked into a prison
Not only free,
But forced to roam.
12 year old feelings
And a flood
Then would bring tears
Now only brings blood
I'd rather be in your arms
Than your head
But somehow
You end up in me
Instead
Avoidance
Of risking this feeling
May be worth
This deal I'm sealing
Prevalent bloodlust
And hiding my phone
Who will die in this room
I'm better off alone

Proud

2010-12-27T23:28:00.001-08:00

I see one of everything
This isn't supposed to be an accomplishment
I have a pulse tonight
Some times we can only wish
Hold my hair back
And check on my wrists
For lines & a beat
Which do not exist
There's a perpetual commotion
Coming from the other room
And by other room I mean
This deep part of my mind
This deep part of my tomb
Dripping onto paper
Through metal and vapor
I can fly with no cape
I can make no mistake
I surrender to a freedom
That I cannot escape

I know nothing

2010-12-27T23:17:00.001-08:00

Roll down my cheek as the world goes on without me
You taste like nostalgia and you reek of empathy
But a broken heart and a neglected voice
Prove there's things I can see
You ignore to save yourself
With your feelings behind a fence
You see bliss
I see ignorance

Suck my Junk

2010-11-24T22:51:00.001-08:00

There's something about your eyes thats making me fall for you
As I investigate further
It's Chanel eyeliner around that blue
The blue is the color of your eyes
That blue is the color of you
But as I wipe a tear from your eye
I realize that you wear contacts too
I run my fingers through your hair
And it comes out in my hands
You smile that perfect smile
You're not that bad with it short in the end
Your eyelashes brush my cheek
But the glue gets stuck to me
Without that makeup on
I guess you're kinda pretty
Knowing you're all caked up
At least you're kindof sweet
But I've never gotten to know
Your personality
You can call me a liar
Or envious
With hate
But the words you hear next
Are coming from a heart
Not as fake
The girl in the mirror is happy
As are few
Because I'm glad I'm not gorgeous
That way I can be other stuff too.

Warm up

2010-10-17T20:37:00.001-07:00

I guess I forgot to tell you
I could rip you limb from limb
I could leave you alone in the dark
Or at least keep the lights dim
Simple mistakes lead to life long pains
And if you learn nothing else
Know that severing that part of your soul
Even if no one else tells
So I think I hate you
In fact I tell no lies
When the shadows move to meet me
And I can't look in his eyes
Because I had something dirty
Grown in Chinas finest fields
All I can hope is for you to die
And let the devil make deals
But who'd want your soul anyway?
I don't want your body shell now
Acidic temptations are bleeding
Like it's your only way out
So halve me in the middle
And poke holes in my skin
Because the one place I want to be
Is enveloped in arms & sin
Except I have ended that
With mistakes I've spoke of before
I hate you I love you so now
My heart is a filthy whore.

Rusty

2010-10-05T21:50:00.001-07:00

I am a beetle or I am a tick
You like to concur
And you contradict
To relay
To convey
My point and my view
You're annoyed and impressed
When you're lucky it was you
Sinking into the bed
As we become one man
We would hear music in the trees
And arithmetic in the sand
There is no solitude in the smoke
Just a reliable old friend
Unlike our lack of touch
Unless it requires bend
And for me to break hope
With myself and my heart
You don't see your words
Aren't what tears me a part
Because I'd rather be
Sinking into the bed
There's something that you keep quiet
Like the fact you're inside my head
While I feel no comfort on someone elses floor
While you're alone in your room
I'm wanting something more

Strangers

2010-08-16T08:17:00.001-07:00

I won't hurt
And I won't cry
A little piece of me did not die
And in bed
What we did
I sold my soul for the highest bid
And ignored the man in the mist
And now we're hancuffed wrist to wrist
You have no mind and your souls been sold
To who, I'd never be so bold.
And when you ask me why I seem so tough
I'll cry it was the act of love
And when they mention to me your name
I'll ask who
Then smile with shame.

Autopilot

2010-08-14T08:45:00.001-07:00

It's hard for me to lie to them
But plausible in hell
It's hard to watch a dream start to crack
And it's harder to lie to myself
In need for attention
You can call me infection
Not like cancer
More like small pox.
Because once I'm driven away for good
That's when my need finally stops
In this confusion
I'm sure you could mistake me for true
But I need someone, and
Sometimes that "someone"s not you.
The rush to see if they believe my lies
They do
I always can tell
I'm bored of people that always believe me
It's funner to lie to myself

As

2010-07-29T12:39:00.001-07:00

I can phrase it however I please, but "here" is not one of the places I want to be.
The tricky part is, I could be anywhere and feel the same.
I'd feel the same love and hate and sure this shits just a game.
You make one mistake and everything is affected.
You hand someone your heart, and you're sure to be rejected.
I regret every word I say to you, and every movement my body made against you.
I am uncontrolable and rude, while you fit into the perfect size shoe.
The only place I'm happy is the one before regret. Everything good in life makes the day after sad.
You tell me crying is a weakness, but I don't think that's quite it.
I think the weakest of all, are those that don't give a shit.
Melt infront of the tv, disappear under your shell.
In your arms is where I want to be, even if your arms bring hell.
I'd actually prefer it that way, because it's just what I'm used to these days.
I'm the toy you get bored of once I'm exposed
And you're the boy that just wants me out of my clothes.

Frustration

2010-07-28T00:18:00.001-07:00

I was counting everything wrong with you
And writing it down just in case
That way, I'd see it coming:
Ya know, when it's thrown in my face.
Hi my name is vulnerable.
Your nickname is wrong time.
If only it were 5 years from now
I'd be on my own, and just fine.
Here's my biggest problem
I'm blinded by water vapor
If oxygen is your charm
I look down at a blank sheet of paper.

Early

2010-07-15T05:35:00.001-07:00

I keep telling myself everything will be fine, but "myself" has an attitude and realizes that's a lie.
I know that you've changed me, but I'm not ready to admit it yet. Changing for anyone wasn't on my mind, but I think lies were fed.
So the rational part of me claims it's like every other time, while the part of me you let speak loud and clear is the part that likes to rhyme.
The slice of me I get down on paper, yeah I'd managed that "me" for years. Keeping her hidden and quiet wasn't smart, it was just strengethening fears.
Back to the very beginning is the boy that has no soul. Living paycheck to paycheck, chemical feelings don't get old.
Maybe this is just a repeat. Except this time, I'm much more alone. And I have nothing to help me forget. Something to keep me stoned.
Nothing can phase me, isn't that right? I can trust my own instinct. Even in the beginning, I knew you'd be gone in a blink.
At this point I've convinced myself I'm not quite in hell, but everythings not quite fine if I have to talk to myself.

Wuv

2010-07-12T00:12:00.001-07:00

Well I hope you're lonely as fuck.
As my fingers hit the keyboard,
I hope you use up your luck.
Because of a bong accident,
I think I'd be the last one to love you.
That's not entirely true,
there may be a few,
But I still wouldn't be able to.
So one feeling has taken me over
They call this infection "regret"
And I guess I'm a little ashamed
That I let you get into my head.
And other parts of me.
They hate me for it too.
I'm trying to repair my heart
And I'm trying to hate you.

Book

2010-07-08T23:28:00.001-07:00

Everyone seems to be a waste of perfect space and time in a world that cannot spare either.

Fine

2010-07-08T23:10:00.001-07:00

It's just beginning to get fun.
We've reached that point where we no longer care and we forgot who won.
I see no strings from my heart to the bottom of your foot,
So I see no reason for me to stay put.
Sometimes I want to thread through your face to the pavement,
Yet sometimes, your hand to my cheek.
Time is flying as your words mean nothing, I think you mistake me for weak.
Well I'm done.
Circles are cool and follow the rules but walking along one gets you no where but this,
It's safe and it's comfy and you can't get hurt,
But isn't that supposed to be what love is?
We aren't venn and I'll tell you when my mind changes completely.
For me to forgive and go against how I live, I'd have to do a 360.
Your goal in life to have fun is spilling into my lung
Because once I feel no hurt at your words
It's obvious that I'm done.
I don't take things quite smoothly.
I like retaliation.
You provoke me with your words.
And your body to damnation.
So until your face is stained with blood, shame, don't run
Because you're still breathing, unforgiven,
So it's obvious I'm not quite done.

November

2010-07-08T10:45:00.001-07:00

It's like you're singing me a song, and you're singing the lyrics wrong, but not to the point where recognition is difficult. You're also slightly singing off key, but I say nothing because you're singing to me. Every now and then you pause to see if I'm still there, you sigh to hear me respond, you see, you think you're only fair. And if that is so, then you and I are at the top of the most daring ride, and I rattle our seats to see your reaction. Your face is stone, your skin is cold. It's like you fear no death unto. Not only that, but maybe it's because, if you fell, I would fall too.

Fudge

2010-07-07T23:52:00.001-07:00

I try to write about skipped heartbeats but instead I dwell upon tear-stained cheeks. They say everything you need is standing right infront of me, and if that's the case why is it only you I see? I think you hang out behind my eyelids sometimes because I can't get to sleep without your face on my mind. And if I could watch myself I'd shake my head in distain because I'm hopeless and pathetic and I feel my own pain. At a time when it'd be nice to have a friend I feel every ship is sinking to it's end. I remember those eyes in a dark carseat begging my own as my heart skipped a beat. I remember your excuse, the one you told me, now guess at what summersaults downdown my cheek.

Cries

2010-07-06T23:53:00.001-07:00

I'm not moving,
Just the clouds are.
It doesn't take a genius to realize this and it doesn't take a psychiatrist to see i'm broke.
I'm not without money, or happiness, or friends, it's just that...I'm without hope.
You believe I'm a girl far from that of your dreams and I'm begging you, it's not what it seems.
Because, in reality, it was meant to be you & me, ¬hing in between.
My hands are lonely, my shoulders are cold, my lips are unmoving, while this feeling gets old.
There are holes in your mind in the shape of my kind, I belong there is what I'm told.
It's neat to know that no one's there.
I'm fascinated by your lack of care.
As I gaze from the grass, to miles and miles above..
To a place without hate, and therefore without love..
Some call this place "heaven" but I think it's too far
See,
God's not watching,
Just the clouds are.

I hear trains

2010-07-04T00:20:00.001-07:00

When does the next bus run through here? She wondered
He answered, "where you headed, love?"
"oh I'm not going anywhere, sir. I just need one to be thrown infront of."
I think you just want something to hold.
I think you could live alone.
I think you can sleep anywhere, but there's nowhere you can call home.
There are parts of me that are bleeding
And begging to be heard
But I'm too busy drinking attention to actually live and learn.
With a chuckle he muttered, "no bus is worthy of you. So shut the fuck up and leave, so I can be on my way too."
And as she trudged away, he yelled, "don't you care your love was a phoney??"
"don't imitate concern," she replied, "it's okay, I was just lonely."

Box

2010-06-27T23:36:00.001-07:00

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy.
But the grass can always be greener.
I'm biting and casting simutaneously
And somehow I call you the sinner.
You're good but I'm much better.
Who can make who the wetter.
And i'll put the future in a grinder
And a machine gun to the past
And chains around our hearts
To insure that this will last
Because if it really comes down to it
I'll use force, a gun, a knife
Because one we both are over it
I hope I changed your fucking life.

Squirt

2010-06-26T22:43:00.001-07:00

You don't have to caress my cheek or keep my tears from hitting the ground or hold me when I'm sick or say you love me with no sound. Hell, there's no need to pretend we tell no lies or run your nails down my back or tug a little at my hair. It's just nice knowing you're there.

Cook

2010-06-24T05:52:00.001-07:00

There are different parts of me that are hard to resist.
There is a portion of my heart that refuses to face this.
With memories pounding between my two ears
I'm speaking the truth too high pitched for you to hear
My toes are tickling my ankles
I am high off of the ground
Actually the ground didn't do this to me
My mind's in the lost and found
And I'm too happy to worry
I miss your touch it's all too much
To face the world with clenched fists
I remeber more than that dirty whore
Oh, to forget the world exists.

Risk

2010-06-20T00:22:00.001-07:00

Let my eyes wander & let my mind roam 'cause I live in a world that likes to call failure home

I wrote this backwards

2010-06-18T00:33:00.001-07:00

And all because she loved him.
The ending was grim
Alone in the coldest, most solitary way.
But not with ice cream and a good movie at home.
And as most stories end she ended up alone.
She was love and love if love was a mineral.
But this girl was no electronic material
Just like a new video game
He had his fun and soon was done
And the rest ill let fade away.
She found herself a boy who thought she was a toy.
Well as pretty girls do, must i really say?
But who held her hand along the way?
She liked this feeling a lot.
Offered high and love.
She jumped at the first chance she got.
So when pretty girl was tempted.
She'd rather take chances than live her life through.
See there was a pretty girl who does what pretty girls do.

Good morning

2010-06-13T10:53:00.001-07:00

Just a water bag with aspirations to mean something
But we barely live long enough to be something
We're all gonna die
So fuck what you can
Get rich & high
Or atleast try.

I hate you.

2010-06-12T20:13:00.001-07:00

Peeling petals off a dead daisy is how I'm spending my Saturday night. I'm beginning to see why being high in the air sounds fun without take off or flight. Hates me, hates me not. There's nothing more beautiful than flowers on the ground. But this flower is like we are: dead, and the greens been replaced with brown. On the verge of tears and laughter combined into the mirror I wander. Why would ya make this girl cry in the sun? Much less into her slumber. So I'm no longer held and no longer compelled to fix what's been broken so long. Not only is this flower brown but call me recluse if I'm wrong.

Wild cherry

2010-06-10T08:41:00.001-07:00

I shouldve practiced torture
I shouldve done whatever I can
I shouldve kept my sanity
And I shouldve kept on my pants
I'm woken up by sick intentions
And you know that feeling at the top of a roller coaster?
When your stomach is about to drop?
They sell that on the streets now.
A deal is 50 a pop.
It's fairly cheap and the rage amongst the teens
Some are addicted for years
While others crave for weeks
It makes you look like a fool
And do things you never would
Everyone does it now
So you feel as if you should
An empty feeling remains when it's gone
You'll never have enough
Coke is such a last year joke
It's sold on the streets as "love"

Yum

2010-06-09T11:39:00.001-07:00

I used to frown upon vices
Thinking they were just a way to ignore your problems
When no problem is solved unless dealt with
One day I was told "silence often speaks louder than words"
So when faced with ignorance, I held my tongue
And I no problem was a match when it met me
So when I have a problem I have found a way to ignore it
I hold my tongue and down it
But I'm no alcoholic
When silence always wins
My concience does keep quiet

TADA

2010-06-07T12:29:00.001-07:00

Just a lass with no liver and a boy with no brain
If our mind is a place then we're no longer in sane
We are downright obnoxious and done with the games
Nah I'm just kidding we run this damn place
Choking and moaning into the haze
We risk it every day
What was plan A anyway?
There's no fun in this modesty
This honesty, you'll be black and blue
Don't make me act a fool
I don't wanna look like you.

X

2010-06-05T23:34:00.001-07:00

We're not sure why we're here, but we're gonna make the most it.
That's the funny thing about it all; those who have an idea, bore me.
So my ignorance is my blessing.
If my relation is relevant.
Your purpose is to think you have one.
And I pray you be, just be.

Idk

2010-06-04T17:32:00.003-07:00

I don't feel butterflies or security just an unstoppable mischief and a little bit queasy.
I feel like conquering the world in a couple young breaths
And I shouldn't have ceased writing.

Friday

2010-06-04T17:32:00.001-07:00

A broken bottle and a cold cold corner,
I ordered,
Guess astrology forgot to mention this one.
I'm torn between 3 different persuasions, invasions
Of my mind and I just want some fun.
I think there's a choice between weed and tv
Because nobody seems to like both.
I'd rather live and love and feel
Then watch others live and loath.
That's probably why I spend nights alone.

Fucker

2010-05-20T22:50:00.001-07:00

12:45 and I'm awake. Though I was happier when asleep. It's seems your method of love is not quite working out for me.
I can force myself concious but I can't force the way you'll react. And I'm left wanting to cry, why would you want that?
Who gives a fuck. I've ruined this damn verse. I'm going to give in. No matter how much it hurts.
Because I'm a short term thinker. And for once I'll be something I'm not. So I'll stay in bed with my pride. And pray I don't get caught.

Dirty

2010-05-20T16:14:00.001-07:00

There's a mark you left on me, you see, in the form of 2 venomous bites.
I wish I could say I've affected you the same, but if I did, my words would be lies.
So I lay in bed and think of myself, when I'd rather be on the wall.
Or something close or something near, or maybe not here at all.

Shrek

2010-05-19T06:28:00.001-07:00

You stand alone and reap in envy like you want it as bad as me
You want a friend that will love you for you but hey you fucked that up too.

Peachy

2010-05-18T06:52:00.001-07:00

If I broke this glass bottle against your head
I'd be more weary of it spilling on my desk

Nope

2010-05-16T19:41:00.001-07:00

We both bear scares and breathe to the same beat and about the past mistakes we don't speak.
I've heard it takes nothing to hurt another, that there must be nothing cuddling behind my ribs.
I just have an awfully large heart for destruction is all. Am I manageable? That's your call.

Cupid

2010-05-16T19:36:00.001-07:00

If I can carve hate into a wooden plank who's to say I can't scratch love?
The difference is I wrote hate with a knife
And love into the sky above.

Snapple

2010-05-16T19:34:00.001-07:00

And when love is just time and money spent
After they claimed so bright we'd glow
I swore to myself if I fell for you
I'd pursue until you did know

Confessions

2010-05-15T12:41:00.001-07:00

I eat the peanut butter straight from the jar.
And I prefer to roll with kids with access to a car.
My hair is as real as your story of last weekend.
'cause you try to compare our nights
But mine end when I'm barely breathin.
I say it's crazy when I don't care
And most of the time I really don't
But when I actually do
Show ya? No I won't.
We just poppin bottles like some backyard alley cats
You're cool til ya have a curfew
I can't be associated with that.

Old shitttt

2010-05-13T19:55:00.001-07:00

If you weren't to end it
It was going to end on it's own
We whispered
"we will kill you"
So it hovered in the corner and waited
And it was done.
We ripped off it's limbs and laughed in it's face.
Twice to be exact.
So when you're expected to die and you're ready to leave practically promised the gun, hardly handed the knife
You take your own life.
A tear ran down your face as we called you by a different name.
We called you love but you're prefer memory
Or weekend sex
Or deadly
But we called you love and you couldn't lie anymore
So you packed your things and slammed the door.
But for some reason we won't let you leave.
We remain and you cannot believe
That before your eyes is merely we
And for once you claim your fucking name
'cause love you are
And you're to blame.

This ones old

2010-05-12T14:50:00.001-07:00

I love the thought of you
More than I love the kisses against my cheek
I want to listen to the physical you
More than the words you speak
I'd chain you to the floor if I could
And bound you with sandpaper and splintered wood
So that I wouldn't have to lie to my heart and deceive
And you would have to listen
And you would never leave.

Deathbed

2010-04-28T21:23:00.001-07:00

This is the last chance to hold hands before the sunset
And to spill your secrets and emotions onto the internet
To lie to your lovers trusting eyes and leave disapointments for your mothers to find
Youre warm between a clocks cold sheets
They pretend to care for your stories while they count your few heart beats
It's the last time to be irritated by girls who use large words inappropriately
It's wrong
It's the last time to sit at a red light where you don't belong
So blue to blue we stare
because the truth is if we live like we're dying
What will we do when we're actually there?

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2010-04-27T18:43:00.001-07:00

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2010-04-14T05:57:00.001-07:00

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Application

2010-04-12T19:51:00.001-07:00

I'm the blood behind the bruises
In a world where we're all the same
Because if everyone is at fault
There is no one left to blame
The only thing I have lost
Is vocabulary and appreciation for life
I'm living on a dangerous trail
I'm balancing on the edge of a knife
You will watch me and keep me company
So I can threaten all but myself
And if I hurt you I'm sorry
But I warned you of that as well.
You can only watch as I waste away
I'm leaving and only you see
The funniest thing about it all
Is I'm happier than you'll ever be.

Ya okay

2010-04-09T14:09:00.001-07:00

You're okay now.
Oh you're just fine.
Because you're out n about
You're slurring your words together
Your dragging your thoughts together
And you think I'm blind
And you wanna shout
Light as a feather
You're okay now
But you see here's the thing
Here's the thing you see
You're okay for now
That is
Til you think of me.

Ignus fiitus

2010-04-09T04:20:00.001-07:00

That woman wasn't lying.
She led me through a series of things that I say make up your body.
The one thing I manage to hate right now:
The thought of us body to body.
"those aren't eyes" she told us
And at first I ignore her completely.
But when I look inside of them
I realize nothing is looking back at me.
"touch his skin" she demanded
And I was excited for this familiar feeling
Yet as my hand slipped through this hologram,
I found myself still hungry
So I turn my attention toward other
Opaqe mirages of sane
I've always been one to let my heart speak
Before I relied on my brain.

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2010-04-07T17:33:00.001-07:00

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Red sea

2010-04-06T21:57:00.001-07:00

Just another number that was torn right at the seam
Just another digit who surrendered between knees
I'm not the first and I won't be the last
And whether I'm referring to our future
Or the entire female past
It doesn't matter anyway
Because the difference between us is this
I live for the happy moments
And I think you like to take risks
So I'm exercising my only muscle
Through strenuous techniques you see
Mine are quite useful
And yours are just faulty.
So I'm just another plastic innocence
Splattered across the concrete
Abused in tabloid magazines
The taste in my mouths not sweet.
You left a sour feeling sitting atop my heart
Regret and paranoia
Give my vices a bit of a start.
So I'm just another number
But not memory
Because you've "done this millions of times"
And a million one with no name, that's me.

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2010-04-04T19:49:00.001-07:00

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2010-03-30T14:50:00.001-07:00

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Regret

2010-03-30T12:14:00.001-07:00

I spend my time advocating and justifying when I should be interrogating my intentions and my stresses and why they aren't present when I'm sitting and dreaming waiting for someone else to happen. I'm watching the way you're absolutely ridiculous and captivating my attention and perhaps that is my intention: a brilliant reaction to a traction of physics for a fraction of a second I'll remember your visits. I'll think and I'll shove your face out of my mind but it sneaks to the back and lingers there over time. I can't feel your touch. But I'm receiving a hunch. I think you're going to lead me to disaster. You will trick me and decieve me and I'll fall for it. That's fine. You and I were never a "we". It's a good thing your actions will never affect me.

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2010-03-29T15:00:00.001-07:00

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It's okay

2010-03-27T20:57:00.001-07:00

I'm nearly tired of seeing these things.
I see myself in a year or two.
I see a broken mind, no potential.
I see this when I see you.
So I continue to do what I do.
And justify my actions as well.
Because I'm not sure which is worse:
Bordum in heaven or the heat in hell.
I'm always cold anyway.
So maybe the warmth would be nice.
But would I change a single thing
If I were to live this life twice?

hubbappubayy

2010-03-25T17:54:00.001-07:00

I'm spitting out game to the paper
Over and over
But my fingers still feel lonely
Because you talk like a skyscraper
A lot
And I'm just waiting to be boney
So instead of solving a rubixcube
I rip it to shreads
And instead of gaining your love back again
I rip off that bitches head
Because I'm swimming in green
And you're breathing it in
And my only escape has come to it's end
And I need a good book
And a fool to pretend
That we are together in sickness and sin
And I forgot to scroll through some sad sad pics
I can't figure out why I can't write right anymore
It's almost like I'm being ripped to bits
When I'd much rather be eaten whole
I have no inspiration
I have no broken soul.

Highlow

2010-03-25T09:11:00.001-07:00

There's love without sex
And there's sex without love
There's hope and there's faith
But we stray from above.
We giggle
You scowl
Just sluts on the prowl
Lies between teeth
In between sheets
In 20 years
If our hearts beat
We'll be happy
But not free

I'm losing any ability to write lol

2010-03-24T17:30:00.001-07:00

There's a bag full of something in my hand
I'm not sure if it's a pair of shoes or a plant
Either way tonight I'll be with you and looking glam
Because I feel happy when you and I are hand in hand

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2010-03-16T15:29:00.001-07:00

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2010-03-14T14:42:00.001-07:00

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2010-03-11T19:52:00.001-08:00

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2010-03-09T19:10:00.001-08:00

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2010-03-09T10:13:00.001-08:00

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2010-03-08T14:46:00.001-08:00

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Helen Keller

2010-03-01T20:59:00.001-08:00

I thank whatever you believe for those few extra moments we receive when we ask for more coffee and cream and a ticket but they postpone our leave so we giggle and bitch and promise we'll never come back and then my eyes begin to itch, but I won't remember that.
And a couple detours later and I'm dancing in the dark and for a few long moments I think a see a spark but it's just that same one that's in the threads of this damn shirt and on some stairs beside some screaming where I just wanna see you hurt and I pretend like you don't matter when actually you really don't, but to her you mean the world, and feel the same; I know you won't.
So give me something to grab onto and scars and lead me anywhere, because you can boss me around if it comes with respect and hair, because you want a fairytale love and a friend and I want something to do this weekend.

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2010-03-01T15:24:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-28T18:41:00.001-08:00

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An obscene rap

2010-02-28T18:34:00.001-08:00

Wherever we're at
Is creepy as fuck
Whoever starts screaming
Is shit out of luck
'cause we're down to suck
A dick
A clit
What what in the butt
And if that's not cool
Then neither or you
'cause when we talking 'bout size
I ain't talkin 'bout shoes
'cause If I wanted that
I'd date a third grader
You call me a slut
But see, you're just a hater
When you pull that hoe out
My girls start to laugh
I want a dick
Not just some cath--
Eter. And I Twitter
Just to say what I do
But all my updates on what I do
Say "you"
Yo your job "boyfriend"
Is to make my legs shake
This bitch ain't Haiti
But the earth starts to quake
Anyway
And there ain't no charity here
'cause this shit ain't free
Lemme fuck yo ear
Ya see what I said?
I don't ask
I just take
You a dumb bitch
And yo hair is fake
And so are yo nails
So they break when you jack
Off your
Boyfriend
Booty call text
And send.
The end.

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2010-02-28T17:39:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-28T15:11:00.001-08:00

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Gum

2010-02-28T15:10:00.001-08:00

It hasn't been 10 years but here you are,
Telling me you would rather be dead with your words
Leading me to regret with your actions
To a point where I finally feel comfortable
Will feeling terrible.
When vices stop working.
When my heart stops hurting.
A hand in hand triumph over
Who?
When I am hurting none other than myself, why waste my time in fixation?
You're hand in hand
Side by side
You tell me you're in love.
I'm crying and stumbling
And forgetting my purpose
And I tell you I'm happy.
When a couple stick-like girls inside a shrinking place are sweet
When my face is in the pillow and it smells like fire
And under the covers is a knot of feet.
Because I wanna be held and you are in hell and the last thing I wanna be is you.
So instead of crying I'm killing my spirit
I'll be dead before the day is through.
And I'd like to tell you I regret this sin
But next weekend I'll do it again.

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2010-02-27T12:24:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-25T12:16:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-23T18:08:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-20T08:08:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-19T15:56:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-11T12:01:00.001-08:00

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A love poem

2010-02-09T17:21:00.001-08:00

Ive never been great with love poems
Its not exactly my expertise
I'd rather be realistic
When it comes to this life I lead
Some dream of dresses
and their husbands-to-be
but I dream of adventure
cause that stuffs not me.
A hand in hand triumph
over 40 different seas
in a world where theres no "them"
Together it's just "we"
time doesn't stop
when I look into your face
you're the reason time exists
in this nearly unbearable place
so when you ask me what I want
and I answer "a story to tell"
I mean I want a fairytale
in a place that feels like hell.

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2010-02-09T11:41:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-09T06:04:00.001-08:00

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